Spaces

I wrote this post in July and never published it. Since I wrote it the walls have been painted and we are all moved in (this will make sense after reading the entire post).  The transition has been a good one thanks to Abigail’s nudges of approval. I’m so glad our girls keep us close just like we keep them close.

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Her room is nearly empty waiting for a fresh coat of paint. In the corner sits a book case that will soon be the color yellow, just like she planned. On the shelves all of her favorite things.

Tom and I spent the weekend rearranging our living spaces. We knew that after Alice was born it would eventually happen but have been waiting for permission from Abigail to begin. Tom said this weekend was good so we started the painful process of going through Abigail’s belongings and cleaning up her space so we could move in. Her space, like Anna’s before Alice arrived, has pretty much gone untouched since she went to Heaven.

As we went through drawers and belongings, we cried, we laughed and we connected with our girl in Heaven. Abigail had hidden away a lot of lists ~ lists of the things she wanted to do, places she wanted to go, words that were important to her (some in other languages she wanted to learn) and a list of the people in her life and what she liked about them.

I read aloud, “Anna ~ generous, Emily ~ kind, Ben ~ generous, Susan ~ loving, sweet, kind, Mom ~ nice, loving.”

I paused, looked at Tom and read the last one, “Daddy ~ the person I love the most!”

Tom was and forever will be Abigail’s rock. When I met the two of them they were very much like Anna and I ~ inseparable. Tom was a single dad taking care of his 8 yr old daughter full time. He was working hard to provide for her and being the best dad ever. Their connection was one of the many reasons I fell in love with Tom.

I reflect often on how my heart feels missing my girls but in this moment all I could do is reflect on how Tom’s heart felt ~ he misses his girl.

Abigail adores her dad. She is his biggest fan and she stands by him through thick and thin. Even now, she nudges me towards her dad in tough times, whispering in my ear to take care of him.

Their relationship was, is and always will be beautiful.

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There were a lot of treasures found that day. It never ceases to amaze me how they come into our lives right when we need them ~ which is pretty much every second of every day ❤