Three years ago today my girls went home.
I’m sure for them there was some shock and disbelief, going to Heaven wasn’t part of our family plan ~ not yet anyways. When I close my eyes and think about where my girls are now I can’t help but feel an overwhelming sense of peace through my deep pain ~ my girls are in the presence of God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7
In the moment they entered Heaven I know that God opened up His loving arms and held my girls for a very long time ~ He’s still holding them (and us ❤ ). They were now physically separated from Tom, myself and everyone they love and I know that they were probably worried about all of us. I know that there is protection when little ones go to Heaven, protection from seeing our suffering. Anna and Abigail I know see the whole picture of their love and joy before them – they have a front row seat to God’s glory playing out.
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. Romans 8:18
I daydream about Heaven all the time now.
In my daydreams I think about Anna, my little nurturer. Knowing her heart and her love for little ones I have no doubt that one of her responsibilities in Heaven is to hold new babies as they enter. When I close my eyes I can see her beautiful smile as she looks down at these infants, lost too soon to this world, but taken care of by my girl. That is a perfect job for Anna, her own Heavenly childcare. I also know that she has her sights on her little sister, Alice. I’m waiting for the day that Alice shares her secrets from Anna with me.
As for Abigail, well, I can say that she is probably keeping everyone smiling, performing in some way for everyone around her. Abigail also, I’m sure, is keeping her loved ones here very close. She always wanted her family to be happy and “ok.” If you personally know her and think you hear or feel her presence don’t doubt that one bit…I often hear her whispering, “take care of my dad, Susan.”
Today, on Anna and Abby’s 3rd Heaven Day, will you close your eyes and daydream about Heaven with me and open up your heart to God’s love and joy? Choosing to trust Him with all of my heart the day my girls entered Heaven, not only has given me strength, but also has opened my eyes to a place that is so beautiful and filled with an abundance of love and joy.
This place, Heaven, is where my girls call home.
Those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31
I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. Genesis 9:13
Thank you all so much for your love, prayers and support. Our family is so fortunate to have such an amazing community, near and far, that have chosen to join us in honoring our girls by loving others.
Love and Joy ❤
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I read this post on the day that my mother in law went home to Heaven. It is a sad day, but I am also happy that she finally gets to hold our baby Dillon. I have been at peace with losing her today and losing our unborn son four years ago. After reading this post though, I feel more at peace knowing that Anna has been there almost the entire time holding him and taking care of him.
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‘Such a beautiful tribute to your precious girls that left you so soon. I have admired your strength and your faith from afar, think of you often, and pray for you and your family.
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Such a beautiful post. Thank you so much for sharing and reminding me about what life is all about. I’m envisioning heaven and seeing my little girl there, knowing she is so happy and surrounded by love as well..She went there in 2008… Praying for comfort and peace for you and your family.
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Sending love to you and your family today. You give me strength Susan! You are an amazing person and I wish you , Tom, and Alice strength, love, and happiness now and years to come❤️
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Lots of love and prayers for you and Tom today and always! I love the ways you daydream of your girls in heaven. I’ve always felt that we each have a specific purpose here on earth and in heaven. Knowing the pupose driven lives your girls led here on earth to spread love and joy…well I can only imagine the amazing things God has in store for them in heaven. ❤️
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Three years ago, as we were waiting for our two new family members to take their place in our family, our hearts were breaking for yours. And though our paths never crossed (at least as far as memory serves), we were praying for you. The Lord brought your family to mind again last week, and my heart felt a certain heaviness. Thank you so much for sharing. I trust that beauty comes from ashes and that He will continue to work in the lives of those your story reaches.
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You have been a wonderful testimony to the grace and strength that our Lord gives us when we suffer loss that is indescribable. My family has suffered unexpected death and I do understand the pain of loosing loved ones unexpectedly. I share your sorrow, and I share the same grace and strength from our all sufficient God that truly does give us peace that passes all understanding. Your testimony is touching lives. Thank you Father. My love and prayers, Arlis Mitchell
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Praying for you and your family today and so many other days, Susan. Thanking God for the beautiful, strong testimony you have so continually given. Thank you for sharing so openly with us. Much love.
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Thinking of you and praying that God’s blessings are with you!💕❤️💕
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Thinking about your family and Abby and Anna! They are in the arms of the alimighy king! I know they are watching over in such joy as your family has grown and come even closer to God! I will and have been thinking about all of you today. Prayers are for continued peace and comfort.
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What a beautiful testimony, Susan! Thank you for sharing your faith & trust amidst such grief. Much love to you and your family today!
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Hi Susan,
my name is Alice and I live in Chicago.
My son was a senior at Pacific when your girl were called to Heaven, that’s how I came to follow your blog.
Please accept extended peace and love to your family from ours today.
I have not experienced loss like yours however I have a sister and very close friends that have.
Your blog gives me introspect that is helpful for me to understand and comfort them the best I can.
Thank you for generously sharing your journey, it helps more than you know.
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Susan, Tom and Alice,
Holding you close in our hearts today, as we do everyday, but extra loving support being sent out today. We love all of you!!
💜💙🌈
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Holding you and your loved ones tight with prayers! ❤
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Thinking of you and your family today more than other days. Peace and love be with you always.
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