The 20th

As this number on the calendar nears I always take a deep breath and think “another month closer”. I really can’t believe how time has past so quickly. I never thought I would be so grateful for this. I used to want it all to slow down so I would ultimately have more time here, always thinking I would go to Heaven first; now I just focus on listening and spreading Love and Joy until we are together again.

This morning I had moment when I remembered lying in bed with Anna talking about her fears, our faces so close I remember feeling her breath on my cheek. I remember her eyes welling up in tears, and all I wanted to do was protect her from any unpleasant thoughts she was having. I wanted to fight whatever demons came into her dreams and wanted to do what I could to keep her mind young and innocent forever. I remember holding her tight and never wanting to let go.

As these moments entered my thoughts today I took a deep breath and then a wave of peace came upon me. I stood there imagining her arms wrapped around me, comforting me, letting me know that she is just fine and that one day we will be together again. I could almost feel her breath on my check and for that I am so grateful.

She is holding me tight and I know will never let go.