Grief

Parenting with PTSD: Surviving the Intense Waves of Grief ~ A PMB Post

Today over at Portland Moms Blog I shared a few minutes of one of my days ~ just one of many I have to live without my girls. This post was very difficult to write but I felt it was important. With each new day and life experience comes a new wave of grief and at the sameContinue reading “Parenting with PTSD: Surviving the Intense Waves of Grief ~ A PMB Post”

Finish Line

Every year about this time I get an email asking if I want to purchase my Hippie Chick Run photos from previous years. The Hippie Chick was a run that Anna and I did together. I would run the 10k and she would meet me just before the finish line ~ it was our thing.Continue reading “Finish Line”

Happiness Journal

Last night I woke up and couldn’t get back to sleep. I miss my girls. I decided, after an hour of prayer, what I needed was something to hold on to. I reached under my pillow and pulled out Honey, Anna’s favorite blanket. I wrapped my arms around it tightly and held it to myContinue reading “Happiness Journal”

They Will Fall

Fall is a mix of emotions because there are so many reminders of the exact moment our hearts were broken and it is filled with so many beautiful memories of our favorite season together.

Lifeline

In the weeks following Anna and Abby going to Heaven hundreds of cards and letters flooded our mailbox. I remember sitting with them, unopened, wondering how I was ever going to get through them all. I would sit each night opening just a few, because that was all my heart could bare. We were theContinue reading “Lifeline”

I’m not going to lie…

I’m not going to lie, I’m struggling. My heart hurts so bad. I hold on and find joy in my days for Alice and Tom but in the quiet moments, like nap time and in the middle of the night when I can’t sleep, I sit paralyzed with my reality. I miss Anna and Abigail soContinue reading “I’m not going to lie…”