Parenting

Parenting with PTSD: Surviving the Intense Waves of Grief ~ A PMB Post

Today over at Portland Moms Blog I shared a few minutes of one of my days ~ just one of many I have to live without my girls. This post was very difficult to write but I felt it was important. With each new day and life experience comes a new wave of grief and at the sameContinue reading “Parenting with PTSD: Surviving the Intense Waves of Grief ~ A PMB Post”

Flutter

I remember the first time I realized the flutter in my belly was actually Anna moving around. It was the first time I felt a life growing inside of me. I smile at the memory of lying in my bed, hands on my belly, realizing that I was going to be a mom ~ Anna’s mom. YearsContinue reading “Flutter”

Small As a Ball

I looked everywhere for this photo yesterday. I knew I had it somewhere ~ old computer, new computer, phone…I didn’t find it until last night when I opened the last file on my old computer and there it was. Small as a ball! Anna would be done with her bath and would yell at theContinue reading “Small As a Ball”

Pretending

So much going on these past two weeks and I’m finding it hard to come and share it all in this space. I want to, more than anything, but time gets away from me and I find another day has gone by. In the past month I have found that I long for this space andContinue reading “Pretending”

Perfect Shade of Pink

I’m not sure how I ended up in the comforter aisle ~ the thought of a new comforter on our bed was not even on my mind and hasn’t been. I like the comforter we have and our bed is the only one that is regularly used. I was confused until I saw it. At first it was the polkaContinue reading “Perfect Shade of Pink”

Keeping My Promise

We needed to make a plan. I had been wanting to take them for a while but with the family budget, activities and life it seemed we could never get it planned. When Anna was born I remember daydreaming about this adventure (along with so many others we would take together) ~ knowing her eyesContinue reading “Keeping My Promise”