Love Has Won

I love that when I look at our steps leading up to the girls’ rooms I can still hear them giggling, I can see Abigail running down the stairs to tell me something urgent and I can see Anna hooking her leg over the banister and sliding down to the end. I love the look on her face.

I love that when I’m in the bathroom standing at the mirror in the morning I can hear Anna singing in the shower. I love that when I think about how long her showers used to be I can hear her yell back after I’ve asked her to wrap it up, “mom, I’m relaxing under the warm water.”

I love that when I see kids hanging out in our neighborhood I can see Abigail in the mix. I love imagining the stories she would tell after “hanging out,” or the stories I would have tried to tactfully get out of her after “hanging out.” There are boys in these mixes ~ I love thinking about what teenage years would have brought our way. I love that Abigail was a great kid and that I really wasn’t worried about it all but rather excited for her.

Abs and friends

I love that I can still hear the girls asking what’s for dinner and then making faces at me if it wasn’t what they wanted or hugging me if it was. I can still feel the hugs.

I love that whenever I see a big box I can hear a giggle coming from inside of it. It’s absolutely amazing how a big box with some holes cut into it can keep a girl laughing for hours.

Anna in a box

I love that when anyone says IXL Math I can hear Abigail grumble under her breath.

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I love these moments and at the same time they can cause pain in my heart. What would have been is a question I try not to ask because it always comes up empty. Instead I try to embrace these moments and the feelings that are evoked while I’m in the midst of remembering (easier said than done somedays).

I love that I can remember, feel, see, smell and hear my girls still and along with each of these memories I have a new one that I can embrace.

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I love that a car full of children, Anna and Abigail’s friends, stopped in front of our house and little hands hid eggs filled with skittles all over our yard. We all love skittles.

I love that Tom and I got to spend Friday night with the heroes of our community and we got to see them be celebrated. Our community has a lot to be proud of in the men and woman who protect us. I know that Anna and Abigail are proud too.

I love when people share their Love Rocks stories with me and let me know that they will make and share love and joy too through Love Rocks. I love when they add that they will do that in honor of Anna and Abigail ~ two girls they may not have ever met but feel very connected to.

I love knowing that if the candles in front of the tree go out our favorite police officer lights them while he’s on duty. I love that he takes care Anna and Abigail in this way.

I love looking out my front window and watching while people take a few moments at Anna and Abigail’s tree. I love that children get excited to see the rainbow, look at their photos and find Love Rocks as keepsakes to remember their visit. I love that it is a place of peace and happiness.

I love that yesterday was a beautiful day spent with friends and family.

A day celebrating the fact that death has lost and Love has won.

 

 

7 thoughts on “Love Has Won

  1. I missed my mother so much on Easter Sunday. It was her favorite holiday, the Resurrection, the hope, the new life. I watched my grandchildren and their second cousins chase around the yard looking for eggs and giggling, older cousins helping younger cousins. I suddenly could see it through my mother’s eyes, all of her great-grandchildren looking so beautiful and loving. In that moment, love won for me too! My heart was filled with the love I know she felt. Thank you for writing about your experience of love winning. Joy to all!

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  2. You are right, Love has won and it always will. Abby and Anna are proof that love and joy can overpower grief and sorrow, their legacy will forever live on, along with their memory. ❤

    "I don't think you fully understand how you've touched my life. I don't think you could ever know how special you are, for even in my darkest nights you are my brightest star."

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  3. I just lit a candle in honor of the love of family. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself. I feel privileged to be a part of sharing and spreading the love and joy through love rocks.Today I was honored to give an elderly mother and her daughter both love rocks while we were unloading our groceries in the parking lot at a store. The mom reminded me of my mom who has been gone for over 8 years. it was like I got a little taste of her just being behind them in line and being able to share a little happiness through Ia love rock.

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