On days like today, a snow day in our town, I can’t help but think of how excited we all would be to have an extra day. The girls would no doubt complain at some point that they were bored and I’m sure I too would go a bit stir crazy but we would have a day together ~ something that for more than 3 years I have only been able to long for.
I wrote this on Dec. 12, 2013 ~ nothing has changed.
I miss my girls and I am still finding refuge under His wings ❤
~ playing games with the girls at night; Uno, Jungle Speed, Wig Out, 1313 Dead End Drive and our new favorite The Game of Life.
~ snuggling with Anna in the morning.
~ telling the girls to stop fighting.
~ hearing about Abigail’s day at school.
~ playing Cafe with Anna…I would cook dinner and she would belly up to the bar with her babies and pretend she was at a Cafe.
~ Anna asking for a bednight snack.
~ Abigail asking questions about whether 6th grade was a good time to have a boyfriend.
~ laying in Anna’s bed while she brushed her teeth and danced around her room.
~ kissing Abigail goodnight and having her grab and pull me into bed with her.
~ Anna so intently watching Tom shave.
~ telling the girls I don’t have enough energy to play lava monster at 7:30 pm and having Abigail give me a hard time. (I’m not a night person)
~ giving Abigail a hard time at 7:30 am when she was grumpy and didn’t want to dance around with me. (She’s not a morning person)
~ that we understood this about one another but still gave each other a hard time anyway.
~ how my girls made me want to be the best parent I could be.
~ having kids play hide and go seek in our house. Many times trying to find Abigail because she knew all the good hiding spots.
~ having Ozilline knock at the door around 5:30 to ask for a play date and then hearing Taylor Swift blasting from upstairs 5 minutes after her arrival.
~ the girls asking to go get ice cream, over and over and over again.
~ Anna holding my hand.
~ Abigail asking if her hair looked stupid or was sticking up on the sides. It always looked fabulous.
~ dropping Abigail off at school and rolling down the window just as she was 5ft from the car and Anna and I screaming, “I love you Abigail.”
~ the look she gave us when we did that.
~ new artful creations emerging from the studio.
~ hearing Abigail and Tom talking in her bedroom.
~ monkey bars in the morning before school.
~ relentless request for sleep overs with friends.
~ the excitement that filled the house when Emily and Ben were coming for the weekend.
~ seeing Anna at recess and having her kiss and hug me a hundred times.
~ watching Anna ride Tiva.
~ having Abigail show me all her new Tap moves.
~ hanging out at the dance studio watching Anna in her tap class.
~ the smile she gave me when her eyes met and she knew I was watching.
~ listening to Anna care and nurture Baby Mary every single day!
~ hearing the loud music coming from Abigail’s room, even when the door was shut.
~ picking Anna up from her dad and listening to stories about her weekend away.
~ watching Tom dance with my girls.
~ elaborate dance productions in the family room staring my girls.
~ looking through the American Girl Doll catalog with Anna while snuggling up in the big red chair.
~ the excitement of finding Joey Francisco, our elf, each morning in December.
~ thinking about their future.
~ Anna giving me the “I Love You” sign as she drove away with her dad for their weekend together.
~ watching Anna lift Sampson’s back-end up so he could stand up.
~ sitting at the table and eating dinner as a family.
~ asking Anna to stay in her seat while eating dinner as a family.
~ talking/fighting with Abigail to do her reading.
~ being amazed that even when Abigail loved her book she would only read for exactly 30 min.
~ listening to the excitement in Anna’s voice because she was finally learning how to read.
~ listening to Abigail’s plans for her future.
~ listening to Anna’s plans for the future.
~ planning birthday parties with lots of surprises.
~ hugging Abigail and having her squeeze me really tight.
~ hearing Anna shout from the shower, “Mama where are you?”
~ hearing “Mama.”
~ planning family adventures.
~ finding our journal under my pillow and reading Abigail’s latest entry.
~ writing an entry back and telling her how proud I am of her.
~ talking about and then writing down 3 things that made Anna happy each day before she went to bed. Looking at her drawings of those 3 things the next morning.
~ watching Wonder Kratts and Curious George before school with Anna.
~ movie nights snuggled on the couch.
~ asking the girls to pick up their shoes.
~ paying out allowance.
~ listening to the girls plan for their allowance.
~ watching Anna continuously move throughout the house every single night.
~ Abigail’s sweet singing voice.
~ Anna singing “We are Never Ever Getting Back Together,” by Taylor Swift at the top of her lungs.
~ finding love notes on my night stand.
~ my girls, I REALLY miss my girls.
This list can go on and on. I pray for continued peace and know that I will spend eternity with my girls. Until then, I will miss them terribly and will cherish the life I had here on earth with them. Under His wings I will find refuge. I am forever grateful His grace and for the time I had with my girls.