I once heard a sermon years ago where the Pastor, a dear friend of mine, talked about our life on earth. He said that our lives here were a dot on a continuous line. I remember thinking, a dot, that’s it, that’s all we have. At that moment my hope was in my life on earth and not in eternity. Over the years I have come to realize the importance of this sermon and have found solace in the fact that our lives on earth are indeed a dot.
Since October 20th I’ve thought more about those words and what it means to me. I have also witnessed many people whose ability to understand what happened to my girls is caught up in the fact that their hope is of this world and not eternal. I can understand that if you only live for your life here on earth that my girls have then just vanished.
Taken from this world to soon. Gone. Never to be seen again.
I would assume also that the emptiness that you would feel from this tragedy would be extremely intense and hopeless. You may feel regret of all that you did not do or say and wonder how you will ever make it through another day knowing you will not EVER see, hear or feel them again.
My hope is not of this world. My hope is eternal. My girls did not vanish they simply relocated to Heaven, to soon I will add, but that is where they are. They are in eternity and someday I will be there too. This brings a smile my face in a time I should not be smiling.
My grief is mine and I walk with it every single minute of every day for the rest of my days here on earth.
This walk is hard, taking my breath away at times.
I will say though, my grief is comforted by the hope that exist in eternity. I know that one day I will yell my girls names and they will come running to me in Heaven. I will see them, hear them and feel them again. That day will be so amazing.
I know, without any doubt in my mind, this to be true.
For now though, while I am living in the dot, I will remain grateful to God for his grace, I will share his love with others and I will live a life that will honor Anna and Abigail and make them proud.
My hope is eternal and one day we will be together again!
Dieter Family Vacation in Traverse City Michigan 2012
Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. ~ Romans 5:2-5