Yesterday I had a conversation with some folks and in that conversation I brought up Little Miss Anna; I could see in their faces complete heartache and discomfort. I know a lot of people do not know how to respond to the current state of our lives; I struggled last night because of this, wondering if bringing up my girls really does cause people more pain. It doesn’t cause me pain, I love talking about Anna and Abigail.
This morning I was sharing this with Tom and we had a discussion about our lives, both before and after the girls went to Heaven. We both have the same viewpoint; we do not want our lives viewed as a tragedy but a love story.
People often say that they can’t imagine what we are going through, my response is always the same – “Don’t try”. Our hearts are heavy with not being able to be with Anna and Abigail right now but they are also filled with a tremendous amount of peace, love and joy! We have lived such an amazing life with our girls here and we have no regrets. We are focusing on the love and not the tragedy.
Someone very close to Tom and I helped me through some of my PTSD in relation to the night of October 20th by asking me what exactly happened that night. At first I said my girls died and then she said, “no, what really happened.”
On the night of October 20th, Jesus came and got my girls and HE LOVES THEM SO MUCH. When I close my eyes I can see how beautiful that must have been for them. I can only image the glory that they were witnessing at that exact moment and my heart fills with love and joy thinking about it!
Our life is not a tragedy but a love story and I will always talk about my girls and share that love story with anyone who wants to listen.