…but not too busy to post a picture of my girls enjoying summer.
Every seasonal transition brings another wave of grief and sadness. Sometimes it’s similar to what I have felt before but sometimes, like this morning, it’s a new feeling of loss that overcomes me.
This morning, while shopping, I placed a Love Rock on the swimsuit stand next to the suit I thought Anna would like best. At that moment I remembered being so excited for summer with the girls ~ beach, water park, back yard water fights, lemonade stands, playdates with friends, snuggling on the couch on rainy days watching movies.
I used to live in bliss and sometimes, not very often, I would have a wave of true sadness. Now, I live in sadness and sometimes, not very often, I have waves of true bliss.
Bliss is the word I would use to describe my life before the girls went to Heaven ~ perfect happiness, great joy.
I know that my girls have bliss in Heaven and that is what I focus on now. That, and trying to figure out what swimsuit Anna would like at the age of 8 ~ probably not the one I picked out for her <3.