Anna’s Prayer

Posted bySusan Dieter-RobinsonPosted inAbigail, Anna, God's Grace, Heaven, Joy, Love, Our Love-Drenched-Life

Every night after our evening routine (teeth brushed, happiness journal written, running around her room 20 times and dancing) we would lie in bed together and pray. Anna liked when I said the prayer, she was still bashful to pray out loud. Every night when I finished she would tag on her own request to God, “oh, and one more thing please put a baby in my mama’s belly.” Every night I would also say that prayer wanting so badly a little brother or sister for our kids ~ our family!

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It was Saturday morning and I had a list of things to do. I jumped on Facebook for a second and was completely overcome with a feeling I thought I would never have again. A friend of mine had posted a picture of a little girl in China who was in desperate need of adoption. She was 10 months old and very sick, she needed a liver transplant or she was going to Heaven.

There was something about her little face, something about her eyes, her nose that felt so familiar to me. I immediately called Tom into the room, shared the post and said, “we can do this.”  He agreed.

We spent the next 2 days calling the adoption agency and people connected to her story, writing emails, and filling out paper work. My to-do list got pushed off my desk and the only thing on our minds was this little girl getting a chance at life. I had no idea how we would ever come up with the funds for an international adoption, let alone all the medical cost that would go into this little girls needs. I had no idea about anything but something in my heart told me none of that mattered ~ she needed a chance.

On Monday morning I talked with a woman from the agency and it turned out that there were a number of people who were already in their system who were interested in this little girl. These families already had all the months of work that goes into an international adoption behind them ~ we were just starting and this little one didn’t have lots of time. My heart broke for Tom and I but I knew that there was something bigger at work in all of this; I trusted God.

I sat and prayed that if we were not going to be her family that God already had a family all lined up for her. I gave thanks for this little child of God for opening my heart to a possibility that I never thought I would want again. I grieved that she would not be ours.

That weekend, God placed this little girl in our path to open our hearts to His plan ~ one that was too hard for me to even bear until I saw her face.  I really had no idea what He had in store for us but It is very clear to me that this little one is part of our story. I pray for her everyday and will do so for as long as I am here.

A couple of weeks ago I found out that not only did she get placed with a forever family, she also received a new liver and is doing great.

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It had been a hard couple of weeks, Mother’s Day was just around the corner and I didn’t want to spend it without my girls ~ my unfixable problem.  We had some plans but we have learned not to have a lot of expectations for holidays ~ we never know just how we will feel.

I opened my eyes and took a deep breath into my reality, as I do each morning. That morning, though, it was different for some reason, I wasn’t feeling very well. I was nauseous ~ a feeling that was very reminiscent to one I had 8 years earlier. I started to do some math in my head and realized that this feeling I had could possibly be something a little more involved than a bug. I had been extremely tired for weeks but thought it was just due to grief.

I shared with Tom and he ran out of the house for the grocery store.

The test couldn’t be more clear ~ we were having a baby.

I sat on the bed and cried. Happy tears and sad tears both poured down my face. Happy for this little life that Tom and I created and sad that our girls were not here to share in our joy. I then remember Anna’s prayer, one I did not continue to say once she went to Heaven. A baby in my belly was Anna’s prayer, her gift to us.

God’s timing, His plan and the events of the last couple of months all became very clear. He was preparing our hearts for this little soul ~one that He has selected just for us, for our family.

Anna’s prayer was answered and I can’t think of a better Mother’s Day gift from my girl.

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66 thoughts on “Anna’s Prayer”

  1. Awww thanks for sharing susan. ..you really bless me and others with your postings. ❤ God bless you with a smooth pregnancy. ..love and joy ❤

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  3. Someone tagged me on this today on Facebook and asked if I had seen it….I had not as I have been at my daughter’s all week in Banks….I read it and cried like a baby!!!!!!! Congratulations, love and much happiness to you with this new little human 🙂 🙂 🙂 You deserve this and what an awesome gift from Anna………

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  7. That is the sweetest news. So happy for your family!! Praising God for his faithfulness and love.
    💕💕💕💕

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  8. I am so happy for you and your husband! What a wonderful gift from God to help fill your home with love and baby cries! May He bless you and your family with his abundant love!
    I have a blog with the stories of women I have collected over the last 10 years or so, all true testimonies. If you are interested in sharing your amazing story with me, I will include it in my blog. BTW we had the kids at our feeding center in Mazatlan, Mexico make love rocks this past year, don’t know if they ever put them around as I tried to get them to, they just wanted to keep them! Check out La Vina Feeding Center Estero on Facebook.

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  9. This is the best news!!!! I am so happy for you both! I am a P.E.O. sister of Sally Hooper and have been following your postings. I pray for you everyday and send love and hugs for your new blessing to be!!💕❤️💕

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  10. Thank you for sharing your joy with all of us, Susan and Tom!!! I know there is great joy in Heaven right now for all of your family and that Anna and Abby are throwing a party for their newest sibling, getting him/her all ready for you. 🙂 We love you!

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  12. I can barely see the screen through my years of joy for you. Not long ago, I read about how some cultures believe that we all are together and know each other before coming to earth where we meet again. I’m thinking that your girls know your new one and have blessed her/him by sending you this special gift. I’m so happy for you!

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  13. Susan,Five minutes ago I’m finishing hosing my deck and you came to mind (as you do often) and I took off my shoes to come inside and email you about walking some morning. I knew you had been busy directing the play so I waited until things calmed down to contact you and when Mike saw you this a.m. I wanted to connect. I picked up my phone and see a picture message from Chels with what looks like an ultra-sound and before I can even put my glasses on to see what’s on the screen….she calls and reads me your post! I’m crying tears of joy for you. My heart could not be more full. What smiles your girls have on their faces. Just had to write this at the moment I heard the news. Please write or text any morning you would enjoy company on your walk. School is out for me and any mornings are usually good. 503-307-9233 Bonnie Date: Mon, 15 Jun 2015 19:53:33 +0000 To: mbmccabe_1@msn.com

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  18. What a wonderful blessing! My sisters and cousins have a “Play Date” on Wednesday to make a bunch of love rocks to send out into the world. This gives us even more to be thankful for!

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  21. Dear Susan and Tom,

    I am so very very happy for you! And love that heart shaped yolk sac!

    xoxoxoxoxox,

    Penny

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  22. Congratulations Susan, I can’t think of anyone that deserves this more than you..I made love rocks with my 2 granddaughters today and am excited to tell them this addition to your story. Ever since I read the story about your beautiful daughters in the Vindicator I have prayed for you and your family everyday and one of the things I’ve prayed for is that God would bless you and your husband with another child and am so blessed to see that He is blessing you with another child.

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  23. I have just started following Love Rocks and am SO happy at your blessed news! Excited to come back home to Oregon for a visit and keep my eyes peeled for a Rock!

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  25. I am so thrilled for you both. I have been following your story since finding a love rock. Truly a gift from God!!!

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  27. This is truly a gift from God and a wonderful blessing. I am so happy for you and Tom. Your girls are so happy too! Live in this moment.

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  28. I can’t even express the amount of happiness I have for you & Tom! I was so hoping this would happen! Congratulations & God Bless all of you!!!

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  29. There is no one on earth that I could be more excited for at this moment!!!!! May God continue to bless you all. Congratulations!!!

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  34. What a blessing! God created us to add joy to our life even in the midst of terrible pain. So happy for you and Tom.

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  39. I was crying when I found out yesterday. Even Kada texted me when Madison told her the good news!! “Susan is having a baby!!” Thank you, Anna, for your part in this special gift. And the heart shaped yolk sack!! Seriously, what a sign!! This baby has two amazing big sisters watching out and helping take care of him/her already!!
    So amazingly over-joyed for you both – for your entire family!! ❤️❤️💜💙

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  41. ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡God is Good ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡Miracles are for his faithful servants ♡
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  43. Congratulations, Susan!!! I am SO happy for you and Tom!!! What a beautiful Blessing from Heaven!!! 😇🙏👼💕❤️💕

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    1. Susan’s… This has me in tears!! I am so happy to hear of this blessing for you and Tom!! I know it is all part of His and what your angels would love!!❤️💖

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  45. Susan, my heart is full of love for you and Tom. God bless you, those little angels of yours sure sent you the best Morher’s Day present ever❤️❤️

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  47. many many congratulations to you both. I am in tears with happiness for you and Tom. Thank you for sharing this wonderful news. You both deserve happiness.

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  48. Congratulations! The perfect gift from your daughter and from God. So happy for you and Tom. Thank you for letting us share your joy.

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