I am spending the week getting ready for our little one to arrive next month. It’s been emotional but, as I clean and go through spaces in our house for the first time in 2 years, I found that the smallest things, like a strand of Anna’s hair attached to a hair pretty, a small piece of paper with Mom written on it by Anna, Abigail’s favorite yellow hat, or the hundreds of bracelets she loved to wear, is like finding the greatest treasure one could possibly imagine.

Today I am grateful for the memories and that the space we created as a family is filled with them.

After dinner walk. Thanksgiving 2012

In the past 2 months I’ve slowed down, both physically and mentally, due to this little one who is growing leaps and bounds inside of me.  I can honestly say I am grateful to her for making me stop and just be. I’ve been praying a lot about her arrival and what it will do to my heart ~ I can’t even begin to explain what it feels like to be grieving the loss of your daughters while expecting another to arrive. I wish I could share those feelings but I can’t and I’m not even sure if I will ever be able to.

One thing I know for sure is that our youngest will be loved by many including two girls that I know are patiently waiting in Heaven for their little sister to make her debut here on earth.  As I prepare for her arrival I can hear their excitement whispered into my ear, Anna is over the moon that she will be sharing her room with her little sister and Abigail can’t wait for everyone to know this little girls name, the perfect name she suggested to us before she went to Heaven.

Today I am grateful for memories and for so many hugs and kisses from Heaven.

Happy Thanksgiving ❤

4 thoughts on “Thankful

  1. Susan,
    I understand more than you probably know. I am praying for you and this sweet baby girl. It is hard, but very rewarding.

    Thoughts and prayers always,


  2. I am so glad you have such beautiful memories and I know your little one will know her sisters. I’m sure the feelings in your heart are very mixed but I also know that you will find your way through it.

    Happy Thanksgiving!


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