The ache in my heart has been intense the past few days. I feel the water getting deeper.
I miss my girls, miss their voices, miss their sweet faces and, believe it or not, I miss the way they used to sass back and forth to one another. If you would have asked me in the pumpkin patch on Saturday October 19th, as my girls were fighting over what pumpkin they were going to stand next to for the annual pumpkin patch shot, I would have said I would never miss the sassiness For us, as I’m sure for most parents, the kids fighting about absolutely everything was at the bottom of our list when it comes to enjoyable family moments. I would often say that we knew that we blended our families properly by the way they liked to fight back and forth. My girls loved to use the word annoying when describing one another and it drove me nuts. So nuts, that not to long ago I declared that annoying was now a “cuss word” in our house. Eye rolls all around.
At this very moment I would love to yell upstairs and tell the girls to leave each other alone. I would love to be frustrated at the fact they were being so intolerant of one another. I would love to see Abigail’s eye roll and to hear Anna’s sigh. I would love to hear them both stomp upstairs and turn their music up loud to annoy each other; Anna listening to Taylor Swift and Abigail her favorite radio station. I would love to hear them say each other’s name emphasizing the first syllable for extra jab. I would love to be frustrated at the fact my girls weren’t getting along rather than have this terrible ache of missing them.
Instead I have this video, taken in secret, using their Mama’s cell phone. I’m not sure how Abigail got Anna to think catching bubbles (aka soap) in her mouth was fun, but she did. I love this video because it shows how my girls could have fun doing anything. It shows them simply being sisters.
I love this video but I wish had the real thing.