Happiness Journal

Daydreaming while nursing Alice is what I found myself doing today and it made my heart happy…I spend a lot of time daydreaming about Heaven but the “while nursing” is new.

Today I daydreamed about Anna and Abigail and how they would have interacted with their new sister. I’m sure there would be some fights over who was going to hold her first, the longest and/or how to hold her the right way.  I also know there would have been a lot of love, kisses and hugs towards the littlest girl in the house, a title I know Anna has gladly given over to her sister.

Today I am happy that I can daydream about these moments, but I will say, I do so with a very heavy heart.  There really is no words to how much I miss my girls and how much I wish our little one had the opportunity to be held by them. Knowing she will never feel that embrace breaks my heart.

babiesmama and alice

Finding time to sit and write is almost impossible right now.

With that said, I have so much I want to share about this new little one and about our life together. As I find time I will find my way back to this space ~ I promise.

For now though, I’m going to keep daydreaming about my girls and feeding/loving on  their little sister ~ two of my favorite past times.

5 thoughts on “Happiness Journal

  1. Treasure this time and we will all be here to hear/read any of your stories whenever the time is right. I really love these photos of all of your girls – seeing them made my day brighter.

    But mostly… I am sitting here quietly with your line “Knowing she will never feel that embrace breaks my heart” and sending you love.


  2. Looks to me like Alice is doing a little daydreaming herself. ❤ I will always continue to have you and your beautiful family in my prayers.


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