Playground Update

girls on playground

Anna and Abby’s Yard is in full gear.

We are working on the layout, putting the finishing touches on the structure and are gearing up to begin raising the rest of the funds needed to make this little piece of Heaven become a reality.

A lot of people have asked how they can help with this project. Currently we are designing and getting our plans approved. We will be putting a call out to volunteers soon.

In the meantime, prayers are always welcome.

This is a really big project for grieving parents to take on but I know that it is what is intended. God has placed in our lives a lot of amazing people to help and guide us through turning our vision into reality. We are so blessed beyond words by these individuals and I can’t wait till we are all standing in the park saying, “Welcome to Anna and Abby’s Yard!”

 

Snapshots

I love taking pictures and I am so glad that I do because I have thousands of photos from November 2006 (the month/year Anna was born) – October 2013. THOUSANDS!

I look at them daily.

Over the next month I will be posting some of my favorites with a short description of what is happening in the photo. As I took these photos I had no idea what they would someday mean to me.

I’m so glad my girls were never camera shy ; )

Spin 1 spin 2 spin 3

One of Anna’s favorite things to do with her BFF.

Abs chalk art

Creating a masterpiece in the morning and rocking it at the pie eating contest in the afternoon.

pie eating

Happiness Journal

God's Love Rocks

This week a man knocked at my door – he was holding a grocery bag, was wearing a large brimmed hat and had a wonderful beard.

“Hi,” he said as I wrestled to get the door shut behind me, saving him from a Linus attack.

“Hi, can I help you?”

He reached into the bag and pulled out a rock, it was in the shape of a heart.

He then shared with me about an older gentleman, a friend of his who lived at the coast, who would walk every day with his dog along the beach, finding heart-shaped rocks. He would then take them to his wife, who was ill and homebound. The rocks were for her – a token of love.

The man at the door then went on to say that his friend’s wife had gone to Heaven and, after hearing about Anna and Abigail, he wanted us to have all of the rocks he had collected for her.

He handed me the rock he had pulled out of the bag, indeed it was a heart and there were hundreds more.

We exchanged hugs and I told him to pass along how grateful I was to have such treasures.

He left and I stood inside the door holding a grocery bag full of love, tears streaming down my face.

These past few weeks have been hard. Last year at this time I had no idea what was going to happen on October 20th, this year I know exactly what happens on that day.

It’s moments like these though that make my heart happy. I am so grateful for these two gentleman, the messenger and the giver, for their kindness.

One day these rocks will be placed at Anna and Abby’s Yard. They will be in honor of a loving couple I’ve never met. I will be honored to place them there.

I’m looking forward to that day!

Linus and Rocks
Linus is obsessed with these rocks….he was sitting patiently while I was taking the picture thinking maybe I would let him play with one.

Carousel

merry go round

Each time the carousel would come around my mom would hold up McKenna and wave her little hand to Anna. Anna had a huge smile on her face – pure delight!

As Anna moved out of sight we would look at each other and laugh. The things we do for our kids and grandchildren.

Thank you mom for ALWAYS being there for me and for my kids. We are so blessed by you!

Milkshakes in Heaven today in your honor!! Happy Birthday!

The Love Rocks Story

love rocks info

Today I spent some time updating the Love Rocks page.  I encourage anyone who is sharing Love Rocks to use this as a guide while sharing. This information can also be found here.

The Love Rock Story

Sometimes life brings circumstances that are completely out of your control. In those times, it’s important to remember the beauty in life, love​,​ and know​ing​ that God can​ — and will​ — bring a peace that surpasses all understand​ing​.

Love Rocks was inspired by two girls who ​lived with immense ​Love and ​Joy​. In their honor, we have chosen to s​hare that ​Love and ​Joy ​with anyone ​willing to receive it. Thank you for ​celebrating with us!

I have had a beautiful life filled with lots of laughter, smiles, lots of love, beautiful children, a wonderful, dedicated and loving husband, solid friendships and a community that loves and supports their neighbors unconditionally.

On Oct. 20, 2013, the unthinkable happened to my family. My daughters, Anna (6) and Abigail (11) were hit by car in front of our house. Both girls went to Heaven that night without warning.

Tom and I have had to navigate grief that we wouldn’t wish upon anyone. Our house is now empty – no laughter, no dance parties, no morning cuddles, no fighting about homework or bonding over our favorite meal. Empty.

We decided shortly after the girls went to Heaven that we were not going to allow the tragedy of one night to define our girls’ lives here on earth and the life they were now living in Heaven. Their legacy would not be this tragedy but rather the love and joy that they poured out to everyone who knew them and hopefully everyone who would hear their story.

We did not have choice on whether they went to Heaven on October 20th. We do, however, have a choice on how we live our lives honoring our Creator and honoring the lives of our sweet girls.

We choose Love and Joy!

Anna’s and Abigail’s lives were full of so much love and so much joy. They had a way of lighting up a room with their presence and putting smiles on the faces of those they came in contact with. They loved each other dearly and they were definitely sisters – maybe not by blood, but by the way they knew exactly how to push each others’ buttons. Anna adored her sister and wanted to be around her all the time. Abigail loved her little sister and was annoyed by the fact that Anna wanted to be around her all the time. True sisters!

Anna loved horses, Abigail loved theater. Both girls loved to dance, climb, be with their friends and loved family time. They would prefer a game as a family over a movie any night – LIFE, UNO and Jungle Speed being their all time favorites.

They were beautiful beyond words, both on the outside and more importantly on the inside. They had giving hearts and loved to find ways in which they could help those in need. They were insightful, kind, nurturing and loving to all who had the honor of being in their presence, especially their friends.

In April of 2014, 6 months after the girls went to Heaven, Tom and I felt nudged to share a project that we as a family did for our wedding in June of 2011. The girls, Tom’s mom and I spent time cutting out fabric hearts from our favorite fabrics and then Mod Podging them to river rocks. We made one for each of our guests to take home and another one that would be written on by our guests for us to keep. These little rocks have held a lot of meaning in our house since our wedding day and are placed in various rooms so that we can enjoy them no matter where we are.

That little nudge to share took on a life of it’s own. On April 20th, I launched the Facebook Page, Love Rocks. I shared a bit of our story and our hope for spreading Love and Joy through these simple rocks and included a tutorial for how to make them. Before pushing publish button, I had to come to terms with the fact that nothing may happen with this little idea of ours. I took a deep breath, said a prayer, and sent our idea out into the world.

What has happened over the past 5 months has been miraculous. Love Rocks have been shared in our little town, our state of Oregon, in neighboring states and in every other state in the U.S. Love Rocks have been shared in Africa, Asia, South America, Europe and Australia. I’m still waiting for a picture to be posted in Antarctica.

There are photos of Love Rocks in parks, on beaches, on The Great Wall of China, in front of the Eiffel Tower, on doorsteps, in hospitals, at weddings and at funerals, in a secured NASA facility and at Anna’s and Abigail’s tree.

There have been so many stories of how these little rocks with fabric hearts have found their rightful owner just when they needed it most. They have warmed hearts and brought so much Love and Joy to this world — so much more than we could have ever imagined when we felt nudged to share.

The inspiration for Love Rocks comes from Anna, Abigail, and our loving community that supported us and continues to care for us. The outpouring of Love and the immense Joy that is felt throughout the world is their legacy –one filled with hope, light and laughter.

My girls lives were and are beautiful. They have taught so many how to live a love story and I am very proud to be their mom.

Dipping Sauce

boots in leaves

As far as I can remember, Fall has always been my favorite time of year.

The air starts to chill, school starts and routines change, everything is pumpkin flavored, sweaters, scarves and boots are pulled from the depths of the closet and the leaves turn the most vibrant of colors and start to fall.

Today, after an appointment, I found myself walking down the sidewalk of a neighboring town taking in the smells of this season. For a moment, I got lost in all the things I love about Fall. I looked down at the sidewalk and noticed some yellow leaves adorning my path.

The pain I carry with me got sharper.

As with every day of this past year, I get to choose how I move through each new season absent of my girls and this season is no different.

Of course it is hard – every day is hard without them.

This year, I look at the falling leaves in a different light and the Fall air sometimes takes my breath away. As each night comes quicker than the day before, I find that I often want to be in my house, with the curtains drawn, so I don’t have to witness the transition.

The girls’ tree, which has always stood tall outside my window, is now a symbol of these changing seasons. Its leaves are changing and they will soon be on the ground.

My girls loved Fall and I have many memories and, thankfully, pictures of them enjoying the season to its fullest.

Anna would ask if it’s time to buy caramel dipping sauce to dip her apples. She would always beg to have one spoonful first without the apples and then some for dipping.

Abigail would get excited about new school supplies and would work into a good homework routine. We were really learning a lot about each other as we negotiated how that routine should look.

Anna wanting to cuddle up, with a blanket wrapped around both of us, to watch Curious George’s Christmas Show because Fall means it’s that time of year.

Abigail wondering if we would let her go to the football game with her friends. We decided to go with her to check it out first and once there, she stayed in the stands with us the whole time – I guess our company wasn’t so bad after all.

Both of the girls excited to eat my homemade chili and Tom’s homemade cornbread for dinner. Abigail would pull out all of the onions from her bowl and Anna would always need to be told no more cornbread until she ate more of her chili. I think they both enjoyed the cornbread best.

Halloween decorations would be pulled out, costumes would be planned so I could start sewing and a pumpkin patch date would be determined so that we didn’t leave it to the last-minute.

Every bit of Fall brings a smile to my face when I think about how much fun this season had in store for our family.

As I anticipate the fall of “those leaves” I know God’s grace and my memories of my girls during this beautiful time of year will help get me through the heartache. God has gotten me through 330 days without my girls and I have faith that He will continue to hold me up, give me the strength I need and show me His amazing love for how ever long I have until I’m with my girls again.

Today I chose to look through countless Fall photos and remember our love for this season.  Tonight I’m making chili and tomorrow I’m buying carmel sauce.

apples