I would sit on Anna’s bed as she put on her pajamas, brushed her teeth and performed her nightly dance routine around her room. “Number one,” I would say and then she would tell me the first of three things that made her happy that day. I would write/draw in the journal making sure to leave lots of room for her to color.
She never struggled to find things that made her happy, most nights it was hard to narrow it down to the top three. When she was done with her nightly routine she would crawl into bed with me, colored pencils in hand, and critique my drawings. We would sit and talk about life while she would color that nights page.
She wanted me close, I wanted to be close. She would put away her journal, scoot down in her bed under the covers and we would say a prayer. “I love you to the moon and back” I would whisper and then I would say it as loud as I could. Abigail would yell it back from her room where she was snuggled up with her dad. Another day was done, my girls were tucked in and their sweet dreams were about to begin.
I think about Anna’s journal a lot. I sit in her room and go through it remembering each moment that made her happy and the stories that were told as she was dictating to me what to write. My girl lived a very full and happy life and for that I am so grateful.
I’ve decided that Fridays I’m going to carry on our tradition by sharing three things that have made me happy the past week. As I sit and reflect each week on my new journey I want to make sure that I am remembering the little things that have brought a smile to my face. I found that through my grief sometimes those little things are what bring me back to the surface when I’m full of sorrow.
We lived a happy life and I have hope that happiness will continue. Anna and Abigail taught us well.
1. Love Rocks ~ So happy to see all the love that is being shared by so many!
2. Our theater family makes me very happy~ after months of a lot of hard work Guys and Dolls is fantastic. Can’t wait for the opening tonight.
3. Sitting in Anna’s room, looking out the window at the girls tree and watching Stanley and his 5 babies play.