I know that I shouldn’t feel like I do.
This unbelievable sense of peace that my girls are well and that they are safe. I shouldn’t feel it. I should be curled up in a ball and hating God for what happened to my babies.
God is so amazing though, the power of prayer is so amazing and I feel this every second of every day!
I REALLY feel it.
I keep telling folks that it isn’t something I’m saying to make myself feel better. I truly feel God’s arms wrapped around me, holding me tight and telling me that he will take care of them. God is lifting me, making me stand, making me remember all of the amazing times we had, giving me so much gratitude for these two lives, blessing me with amazing people who are praying continuously and simply being the AMAZING God that he is.
I miss my girls terribly!I miss absolutely everything about them and with that I have a huge hole in my heart that hurts really bad.
I am making the choice though to fill that hole with trust that God’s plan is great and that one day I will understand. In the meantime I will live my life for him and for my girls honor… every day, every hour, every minute, every second!!!!
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ~ Philippians 4:7
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Susan, thank you for sharing! Every day I think of you and pray for you and Tom. I often wonder how you’re surviving this and this post gives me comfort and helps me understand a little better. I am SO thankful that you are feeling His love and strength and comfort. Love you!
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Susan- you continue to move me, inspire, and give me hope- I am so thankful for the relationship you have with our Father – I am sooo glad you have his arms around you – wishing I could put my own arms around you- some day soon I hope. I love you friend! Thank you for sharing your beautiful heart!
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You honor them and you honor Him everyday! It’s so beautiful and such a testament to what you truly believe about God. I am in awe of the faith and trust you show and the comfort, healing and peace He provides. Love you!
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I want to comment, but struggle with what to say. I think about the sadness that you feel, and the peace that you have…and I wish that everyone in the world had the sort of faith and the personal relationship with God that allows that feeling of peace. What an amazing world that would be! Susan, I am feeling God’s arms around me right now as I face my own tiny little sorrows. Well, I feel it some of the time…it’s easy for me to get distracted by the countless worries and selfish complaints. Thank you for the reminder that the biggest love is there for us if we just reach out and accept it.
Love to you from Janelle
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