I know that I shouldn’t feel like I do.
This unbelievable sense of peace that my girls are well and that they are safe. I shouldn’t feel it. I should be curled up in a ball and hating God for what happened to my babies.
God is so amazing though, the power of prayer is so amazing and I feel this every second of every day!
I REALLY feel it.
I keep telling folks that it isn’t something I’m saying to make myself feel better. I truly feel God’s arms wrapped around me, holding me tight and telling me that he will take care of them. God is lifting me, making me stand, making me remember all of the amazing times we had, giving me so much gratitude for these two lives, blessing me with amazing people who are praying continuously and simply being the AMAZING God that he is.
I miss my girls terribly!I miss absolutely everything about them and with that I have a huge hole in my heart that hurts really bad.
I am making the choice though to fill that hole with trust that God’s plan is great and that one day I will understand. In the meantime I will live my life for him and for my girls honor… every day, every hour, every minute, every second!!!!
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ~ Philippians 4:7