Grief – Page 8

Pillowcase

I’ve spent the last couple of hours on the computer, working on an online store to sell Love Rock kits and other handmade products to fundraise for Anna and Abby’s Yard. I’m busy and I’m doing purposeful meaningful work. I’m smiling at the results and I’m focused on the end product. It’s all coming togetherContinue reading “Pillowcase”

Feels Like Yesterday

Sometimes on hot days this is the only thing that makes you feel better. Finding it really hard to write. Missing my girls so much. It feels like just yesterday we were getting ready for our family vacation to Orcas Island. I’ve been staying busy with Love Rocks, planning for the non-profit and working on the playground;Continue reading “Feels Like Yesterday”

Holding Me in His Hands

I find that when life is busy it tends to be the one thing I can easily push aside. I make excuses that I need to get ready for my day, or check my messages, and then I’m out the door trying to manage my new life. Sometime I forget that it is only throughContinue reading “Holding Me in His Hands”

Tired

Today was the first day in a long time where I’ve been home all day. It’s been so nice not to go anywhere and be in our space. I’ve spent the day catching up on all that is happening in our lives now. Playground planning, non-profit ideas and keeping up with the Love Rocks FacebookContinue reading “Tired”

At the end of my day…

At the end of my day, I walk upstairs and I don’t hear voices coming from their rooms. I don’t hear dance music or laughter or a little girl talking to her baby before she puts her to bed in her crib. I don’t have to step over toys or put away clothes or askContinue reading “At the end of my day…”

Sorrow and Joy

Overwhelming sorrow of not being able to hold them and a deep sense of joy knowing my girls are with their Creator; that is what I feel. On one hand I take deep breaths to get me through each moment, my heart aches in ways I never knew were possible, and I really don’t know howContinue reading “Sorrow and Joy”